I try so hard to make things work. Sometimes I wonder why I don't just stop the theater 'hobby' and spend time elsewhere. Well, anyone who has ever been involved with any theatrical production knows that it is not that easy to stop. Theater is my crack, I guess. My significant other and I make no money, take no salary and yet we keep going back for more. I just wish I could do better. It is difficult to work a real job, have a life and find time to make the theater stuff work. This month we are having a short evening of scary readings so that we can keep things going in the winter, but I am scared that it will not be enough for the audience.
Is it wrong to add activities to make the evening more memorable? Or, should I just stick to the onstage stuff and not sweat it.
Sadly, if I didn't care what people think, I wouldn't be interested in theater, now would I?
Yes, we are a small community theater- and yes, we do quality work. But the harder I work on a production, the more insecure I feel. Is this because it really is good- is it because I care, or is there some other reason? I have certainly seen a lot of theater groups who think well of themselves, but when I attended their shows, their high opinons were not at all justified.
That is a scary thought-- maybe I feel a tad insecure because we aren't good enough.
